There are so many people I would like to get to know. I'm sure they are all wonderful and exciting and have things to tell that would be amazing to listen to, but I rarely get to know people that well, or at all. I'm shy you see, so shy in fact that I can't really look anyone in the eye without getting all shaky, choking on my own breath or start making odd little noises.. I know, it's strange and all, but I don't think I'm alone in feeling that way.
Sometimes I feel scared to go out because I have to pass people in the street. It makes me nervous. If I meet a neighbor in the staircase I get all shaky. Social anxiety and it's bitter side-effects make me sad, but I have hopes that I'll get better someday. The worst part is that I often miss the chance to make friends because I'm too nervous to speak to them. I loose old friends because I don't dare to call them. I'm being honest now, I hope you won't judge, I think being honest is the best even though it shows things that aren't in my favor.
The friends I have I love dearly. I treasure them and I hope they know that. I think shyness often can be misunderstood as nonchalance and the fact that I'm often too scared to ask people questions can be interpreted as not being interested, but I am, I really am.
Today feels like a really good day though, and I am optimistic because I'm starting to actually do something about my shyness. I'll take small steps towards getting to know the people I'm curious about.
I'm curious about you! Who are you?