Today I went on a short walk to the muddy shore of the duck-pond and just sat there reading old journals, taking some photographs, rescuing a football that some kid had thrown into the water, that sort of thing. I just got back and now I sit here again. I don't know if it feels good or bad, but neutral is fine for me. Actually, neutral feels kind of awesome compared to how this week started.
I still don't have the energy to go through with some things that should be easy, like finishing my english essay, getting the photos from my camera into my computer, sorting the laundry, paying the bills.. Okay the last two aren't easy at all for me, and I think nobody really enjoys paying the bills.
Another strange thing is that I can't listen to music right now. It's like the sounds disturb my heart-rate almost. It distracts me and causes stress in a weird way. Music should be soothing but even meditative music has that weird effect on me right now. But silence is ok too I guess. I think this overly sensitive hearing will wear off soon. Have you ever experienced anything like that? This is kind of new to me..