Sheesh, so much to do and so little time to spend in front of my computer nowadays. Well, the holiday leave I have from work is almost over, and it's new years eve today, so I'm going to celebrate and be happy and then back to serious life again. If spending your days drawing video-game characters can be considered serious. Anyway, I have a steaming cup of coffee and a rather steamy guy in my bed, so I'm gonna leave my computer once more. Ciao!
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
This is my first, fully finished acrylic painting of this size. I started it without a real plan and then the girl I painted sort of started to resemble my sister, and as the holidays were approaching I decided to make it her portrait and give it to her. I loved working on this, and I can't wait to start a new traditional piece. I've got so many ideas!
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
A number of inspirational photographs I've found recently. I desperately want to pick up my own camera and start playing around with it again. I think it could be good for me. Perhaps after Christmas I'll have time to start again, and I have some ideas in mind and models to capture. With the risk of sounding repetative, I'm amazingly confused right now about a lot of things in my life, trying to figure out what choices to make and how to handle everything. My life never seems calm and normal nowadays, I don't know what happened.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
I don't think I was made to be awake during the winter. I think what I really need is to gather food into my den, build a fort out of my bed and stay there in hibernation until spring. I don't think I've been this tired before in my entire life. Still somehow I manage to go out on new adventures and meet new people. I don't really know how that works.
I find myself at work, staring at the clock with only one thing on my mind, sleep. Even though my job is amazing right now and my assignments are dreamy, I can't bring myself to keep focus for very long before my mind wanders. If anyone has a cure for this, please share.
On Thursday I'm going back to my old home town to see my family for the holidays. It's gonna be me and the bulldog beast on a train packed with people. But after the visit home I'm going back to my own nest to enjoy a couple of days off where I hope to regain some strenght and energy. Despite my mind only being set on sleep, I'm more inspired than ever and I want to get things out, in drawings or writing, it doesn't matter. Too much has happened lately to just let it slip. The best way to capture memories is to put them into creativity.
Friday, December 16, 2011
The Desert Dead by Aaron Polson is a really badass story about murder mysteries, zombies and western action. I'm really late with linking this, but I got the honor to paint the cover for this online pulp fiction magazine by the Red Penny Papers a while ago. It was a lot of fun, and if you've got the time, snuggle up with some tea or coffee and read this, it's awesome.
I've been a member on DeviantArt since I was 16. There are many things to say about this community, but I've always found that it's a great way for me to get my art out to be seen by as many as possible, and the kind words I've received from followers there has kept me going, believing in my own art.
Now one of my artworks has been featured in the dArtzine and I'm really excited to have my picture included with so many amazing pieces of art.
Now I'm getting ready to head away for the weekend, off to adventure. It's been a busy week, both good and bad. I just felt like this feature was a good reminder for me to truly thank all those who have supported me in my art, said little things of kindness or given me honest critique. Thank you sweethearts! <3
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Dodge this babe, you´re much more fun when you´re alive...
Yeah I've had a lot of inspiration to create darker art lately, and I'm having a lot of fun with both the painting process and the inspiration gathering. I still feel somewhat strange posting these pictures on my blog, which mainly is about sweet, cute little inspirational things and then I throw in some bloodied knives and desert eagles. Well, I guess it's all about contrasts. Things get so much more interesting when it's not all one-sided.
I've always lived quite a sheltered life, surrounding myself with colourful happy things to live on pink clouds as much as I can. On the other side I've also always been inspired by brutality and lifestyles of people very different to me. A lifestyle I just take tiny sips of now and then when I get too curious to help myself. Those sips are enough to make me want to paint and write, fueled enough to put those experiences into creativity.
Friday, December 9, 2011
Yeah, I've had way too many episodes back and forth with my snooze button, realizing I only have 10 minutes to get ready for work. It has to come to an end somehow! I mean, sure it's nice to lay around in a warm comfy bed instead of getting out into the cold air in my apartment in the morning, but it can't go on! I have to break up with my snooze-button...
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Everything is white outside and me and the bulldog ran around in the park yesterday at lunchtime. Can't believe I actually had the energy to do that, but Chessy was so energetic and happy so I didn't want to spoil her fun. She doesn't look very happy in this photo though, probably because I held her down in order to get a photo. She just wanted to play.
Now I'm back at work, doing what I've dreamed about for a long time. A secret still, but I can reveal that I get to imagine and draw lots and lots of cool stuff that really fits my personal taste. That's not always a luxury you get while painting for a living, so I'll soak it up and enjoy it as much as I can.
Other fun stuff is going on as well, but I really shouldn't be blogging while working. No no, it's time to put on the serious face and design some sweet looking stuff!
Monday, December 5, 2011
Just got in from my balcony where I sat watching the first snow of the winter. Odd how a change of weather can bring up so many different emotions. It reminds me how fast time moves, how much my life has changed in just a year, and I wonder what I was doing back then, what I would have thought about myself if I knew what I would be doing now.
This weekend I had decided to go out and have a few drinks, listen to loud music and just dance, all on my own, not caring much about anything at all. Just getting out the door has always been a challenge for me, now this was something completely new. Exciting and frightening, but I guess I'm able to switch from shy, scared little Emmy to a braver one now and then. I even managed to create some scribbly art from the inspiration I got. So I had my sweet drinks, and listened to some pretty nice live music. The rest of the night shall remain unspoken of, but I've gathered new experiences, felt new feelings and this new snow on the ground works pretty well as a poetic metaphor for this change.
If this brave Emmy will come out and play more often is unknown. Maybe, but not in a while. I need some rest.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
I'm waiting for the rain to calm down so that I can go and buy myself some food. It's such a typical late autumn day where everything is gray and it's mid-day and still so dark I have to have lights lit inside. It's rather pleasant however, now when I'm actually inside and not trecking through the rain with bags full of groceries.
I sketched and painted this faerie, Wither, yesterday, and I wanted to capture those autumn colours where it's no longer all orange and red and bright, but the actual colours of decay. I still love those colours.
My annoying exhaustion just keeps bugging me, and I can't seem to get energy no matter what I do. I fall asleep as soon as I get home unless I really force myself to do something, and it takes all the willpower I have. Luckily my dog has no problem with the fact that I spend all my time in bed nowadays, but my apartment is a mess and today I have to clean it all up. It's come to a point where just chatting to my friends through skype has become difficult. I'm sorry for this, I'm thinking about you guys, and I'll come back from this hibernation eventually.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
While sitting in my little christmas-lit office, working on concept art and inspiration gathering, my co-worker comes in and tells me about Eric Fortune. A quick look through his website is all I need to fall in love with his artwork. Fortune is an Ohio based artist and illustrator who has been featured in Spectrum and won awards for his art. I can see why.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
There is a storm outside this first advent Sunday. No leaves left on the trees, rain drizzling down and my dog has to squint in the wind. I woke up to a very sweet morning, listening to music and hiding in bed for a while with a cup of coffee before venturing out.
Today I want to pick up a paint brush and just sit around all day painting. I've got some ideas and I want to see them come to life.
As for this wish list, it's all teal, pale yellow and turquoise again, because I love these colours so much. Amazing little finds in my favorite shades to make me smile. I'll need it once I start doing my laundry. Mhmm...
Saturday, November 26, 2011
I'm so very very tired now. I started this piece last night after listening to a lot of music that really brought out inspiration and emotions that I needed to paint. It was kind of a difficult piece and I prefer my inital sketch because it had more flow and motion in it. But I learn from that, sometimes all the polish isn't needed, I should have stopped earlier. Anyway, it's a new piece and I'm happy I managed to create something personal this weekend.
I haven't put any specific symbolism into the piece, although it has a lot of emotions behind it. It feels like I've been through some of the most emotionally challenging months of my life. Separations and tears mixed with love and passion and care, and I've never been able to really handle it all. I still don't quite know what to think.
Now I need to go to bed and just breathe a while. This piece drained my energy.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
I woke up too late today, had a facial accident which has me looking a bit like a zombie and somehow the rest fo the day has been somewhat miserable for no real reason. It's a randomly miserable day and I just want to get home and sleep. Whine-whine-random-whine... I have nothing real to complain about except my own bad mood. Silly silly enmi.
Saturday, November 19, 2011
I've felt completely and utterly exhausted after work this entire week. To recover I've been diving back into World of Warcraft, role playing and just talking to friends. It's a good way for me to escape reality and just rest for a while. While role playing as Fawne Westwind, I got inspired enough to draw her as she is now. For those who have followed my blog a long time, this might be a familiar character. I've played her for over a year and she started out as a simple street kid, eager for jobs and easy coin. Since then a lot of things have happened, and this is how she is now.
Her code name is 'Sin' and she has worked her way up the ranks within the Ravenholdt Sanctuary, a group of assassins. It's really interesting for me to look back on what my little creation has become, since she started out as a school project for my University thesis, and she feels like a little part of myself. Creating this piece took most of my day, and I did a livestream of it that sadly isn't complete due to computer issues. But if you want to watch it, click here.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
I sat on my balcony today, smoking like I know I shouldn't, but it was so calm and I had just cleaned my kitchen to spotlessness. I've been so stressed out lately by my personal life that just never manages to just settle and give me some rest. Today though I feel like I can breathe properly, see new hope, look forward to days I hope to fill with art and sweet walks with the dog.
I'm really happy with my job at the moment, getting to do something I've dreamed of ever since I was a kid. This autumn might have been filled with dramatic storms of emotions for me, but today I don't feel as heavy and worried as before. This is my first 'weekend wishes'-post in what feels like ages, but I'm happy to be at it again. It always makes me happy.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
A mix of wonderful photographs I've found recently, all with this murky dark feel to them that I seem to be addicted to. Beauty mixed with dirt and decay.
I've been absent from, well, not only blogging but also real life it seems. I've been so confused over my rather messy personal life lately and I also got a terrible cold that knocked me out for a few days where I could do nothing but stare, lie in bed and cough. It's better now, but my life is still as confusing as ever if not more. So, what to do? More art and beautiful pictures...
Monday, October 31, 2011
I can finally share some more work related art! I made this background promotional piece for Sanctum that will be up for a week on Rock Paper Shotgun. I take no responsibility for the slogans shown on this piece, I had very little say in them.
So, the celebration? I've got a 100 followers on this blog now! Bittersweet enmi has been up and running for over a year and I've slowly seen more and more people come here to read my random words and look at the images I post. It's very enjoyable and I am so happy that you´re here to take a look! If you´re a one time visitor or a long term reader, I just want to send out some hugs to you!