Hopefully, when I go back to Sweden I will be able to keep my focus and keep all the inspiration and energy I've gathered here in Scotland and transfer it into creativity. I know that the more I work on my art, the happier I get, and I just have to remember that when I lie there in bed with a heavy heart and sad thoughts. My mood goes up and down, back and forth and it has always been like that. I think it's something I'll have to learn to live with, but I also know that I can stay happy for longer periods of time when I get into a creative haze. The mornings I go up and sit down to make a page in my art journal or when I take my camera out while I walk Chessy. It doesn't have to be a masterpiece a day, it's just the small things that matter when it comes to staying happy.
This feels like a rambling post of me just sharing my random thoughts, but I needed to get it out. Now I'll try to enjoy my last full day with Matthew without sadness and just fill it with pillow fights, sweet food and happiness!