Sunday, March 3, 2013
-"A creative man is motivated by the desire to achieve, not by the desire to beat others."
-"Achievement of your happiness is the only moral purpose of your life, and that happiness, not pain or mindless self-indulgence, is the proof of your moral integrity, since it is the proof and the result of your loyalty to the achievement of your values."
-"Love is the expression of one's values, the greatest reward you can earn for the moral qualities you have achieved in your character and person, the emotional price paid by one man for the joy he receives from the virtues of another."
-"The question isn't who is going to let me; it's who is going to stop me."
-"To say "I love you" one must first be able to say the "I."
-"The hardest thing to explain is the glaringly evident which everybody had decided not to see."
I've come to understand a whole bunch of idiots (right-wing-christian-fanatics) regard Ayn Rand like some capitalism godess that justifies their ways, but who gives a fuck. To me her texts are not political in any way. They simply attempt to show people that they are the rulers of their own lives no matter what government and society tries to tell them. That is not political to me, it is highly personal since it's all about the self of the individual. Your own identity which is your own property. You decide what to do with it, how to shape it and how to enjoy it, because that is what it's all about. Why wait for something good to happen, why bother if the world is shit and doom is upon you? If you can imagine your own life and your world you can also make it happen. Rule your world like a king, not by ruling over others but your environment, your identity and your dreams.
As for me, I've decided to make all my dreams come true and it's not really that difficult. You might think it would be, I thought so too. For this summer I've written down so many cute little plans. The size of the dreams don't matter at all. I want to have picnics with friends. Put up tents with colourful lanterns, blankets and pillows. I want to dance in a sunset to amazing music and take a bunch of pictures. Sit under trees with a sketchbook and drink iced chaï latte. I'll hug my friends and get hugs back. I'll save money to travel wherever I want in the moment. Be spontaneous, crazy and never apologize or try to justify my own wishes. If people don't understand, what does that matter? I understand my own dreams and that is all that matters.
The quotes about love hit me right in the heart. Realizing that I've never loved myself I've probably never been able to fully love anyone else either. I thought that was bullshit when people used to tell me to love myself first but now I understand that it's the basic root of happiness. I love myself and indulge in my own dreams and my own satisfaction which means I'm able to spread that happiness, all that love and energy and the friends and loved ones I have around me means o much more to me now. They mean more because I know I don't depend on them. It sounds really harsh to say "I don't need them" but that only means that I've got enough self-love to know I'd survive as the last person on earth if I had to. If I'm rejected or abandoned by someone I care about it will make me incredibly sad but it won't ruin me. I'll always have myself as the base of my own life which is exactly how it should be. If I lose the fear of losing others I'll feel much more comfortable around them. I treasure each moment with them and I love all the little things I gain from friends and family. I treasure them for real in all ways possible. Being selfish isn't an ugly thing. It does not mean you don't care for others. It does not mean you step on others or do everything for personal gain. It means you care for yourself, protect your heart and when you want to give and love, you do so with a genuine sense of care. You're never obligated to do anything for others so when you chose to do it you will know and THEY will know that you do it because you truly love them and care for them. Think about that for a bit. It's a beautiful thing.