What If I fail?
I don't really have the time right now.
I should practice more.
I'm not good enough.
I should just snap out of it and grow up.
I want to follow my dreams but that won't pay the bills.
I really need a break but I can't just let everything go.
I wish I could stop worrying.
I used to be much more creative when I was a kid.
I'll never catch up to those who are ahead of me.
I should talk to my family more but...
I have to go to school.
I have to find a job.
I have to be realistic.
I have to face the facts.
Why am I even trying?
It feels like I'm just wasting my time.
I don't want to feel like this anymore.
Why can't I just be like her?
He is so much stronger than I am.
I wanted to say something but...
I don't like my body.
Why can't I just get myself together?
I just feel so useless.
I'm just lazy.
There are so many who could do my job better than me.
What if I'm not as good as people think I am?
What if I let everybody down?
What if they hate me?
Am I ugly? I feel ugly.
I'm just too sensitive.
It's too late to do that now.
If I won the lottery I'd do that.
I hate living here.
I want more.
I don't know what I want.
I don't know who I am.
I wish I could be like them.
I wish I didn't feel so much.
I wish I could meet someone who understands me.
Nobody ever understands me.
I feel alone.
I wish I could tell someone but they'll just think I'm stupid.
I don't want to die but I can't stand life.
But it hurts.
I tried but it was too hard.
I wish I could just run away...
I want you to read these sentences. Just read them plain up and down and think about them. That's really all I would like you to do.
If you feel anything while reading or if you are stricken with a thought, associate with something, someone or yourself, feel free to write it down in the comments. It can be a single word or a whole wall of text. Doesn't have to make any sense. This is a little quest I want to give you, whoever you are that happens to stumble upon this blog. Then we'll see where it leads. I'm doing a little creative research you see ^__^