Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Sweet Photographer: Dara Scully

I found the photography of Dara Scully through photodonuts and she also has a completely amazing photostream on flickr.

I was told something by an important old friend that kind of shook me up. It's got to do with how I seem to only find happiness in my own dreamworld. When I am free and able to just walk around on clouds like a carefree child. These photos remind me of that, and how having a dreamworld that is so engulfing can be both wonderful and terrifying. Right now I'm terrified.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Sci-fi and epic themes

This is what I do for Coffee Stain Studios. During my first week at work I got to create this background piece for Rock Paper Shotgun, a PC game site. It was really exciting and I'm super happy to be a part of this team right now, working hard to make Sanctum as good as possible. The kind of art I do at work and the kind I do at home is not the same at all. It's probably good, and I learn a lot. I mean, sci-fi in general is not my thing at all when I get to chose for myself, but Sanctum has a special place in my heart anyway, and all this techy stuff is really interesting to paint. This particular piece is a mix between the 3D used in-game and my own painting, a technique that I haven't worked a lot with before, but it gives interesting results I think.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Stand steady

I just bought myself a new, slouchy, knitted hat off Etsy to go with what I'll wear when the weather turns colder. They say this entire week will be sunny and warm here, but I know things will get colder very soon. My mom was here visiting me this weekend, and we enjoyed the sunshine and cinnamon coffee on my balcony, cuddling the dog and just talking. She also bought me new shoes for the winter, since my sad red converse are ready to fall apart. I love these boots and I can't wait to get to wear them!

All the while I'm planning how to look as cute as possible this upcoming fall and winter, my thoughts are running crazy as always. Maybe I need these boots in order to stand steady on the ground and feel safe. I'll really need that now.

Weekend Wishes!

Saturday, September 24, 2011

In Print

I recieved the latest issue of Allas Magazine a few days ago, featuring my illustration for one of their short stories! It's always a lot of fun and a bit surreal still to see my images like this, and I felt like sharing! I think this is the fourth one I get published in this magazine, but I'm not a number person, so don't trust me on that.

I painted this picture during the summer, during those four weeks where I walked around in a dreamy haze of love and stuff. I want a time machine more than ever right now.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Coffee Stains

I've been sadly inactive online this week, all because of work. But the good news is that it's friggin' fantastic work! I can honestly say that I love my job and right now I can get over the grudge of having to wake up super early because I feel happy about getting into my little office to paint all day.

So, I'm working for this game studio called Coffee Stain Studios. I'm working as a 2D artist, doing promotional material and other funny little things for the game Sanctum. It feels great because I was in this little group of game developers right at the start when Sanctum was just a school project at our university, and now it's a real company with real offices filled with creativity and, of course, coffee stains. I've already lost a nice hoodie to the washing machine due to a coffee-related accident.

Well, I'm at my office now so I better get back to work. Right now the pictures are all a bit secret, but I'll be able to share some cool stuff soon.

Sunday, September 18, 2011


I woke up this morning and wished that I was back in a Scottish castle. Then I remembered all the guidebooks I was given and this postcard I bought at Fyvie Castle.

I was amazed with this portrait when I saw it the first time. It's hanging in the small drawing room of Fyvie Castle that was once a royal stronghold in Scotland. The name means 'deer hill' in Gaelic. Back to the portrait though, since this is a blog about art and not history, even though I do like my history.

The portrait is of Isabella Macleod. She was married to the physician of the king. The artists name is Sir Henry Raeburn. He was a Scottish portrait painter and this particular portrait is considered to be his finest female portrait. I haven't seen the others, but I really do love this one. It is way more beautiful in person though, this is just a photo taken of my own postcard, lying on my desk at home. I really wish I lived in a Scottish castle right now...

Saturday, September 17, 2011

The two sides

I found these two sketches of faces in my sketchbook that I had never made digital. I decided to put them together into one piece of art to kind of show the two sides of my emotions right now. Hmm, that sounds kind of deep, but it's really every day life for me, these moodswings I get minute by minute. One moment I'm happy, excited about life and smiling about all the nice things I've gotten to do recently and looking forward to a bright future, the next my mind is filled with death, destruction and doom and I'm ready to just lay down and pass away. Then luckily, some minutes later I'm back to normal.

I wish my mind could be a bit more stable and let me just rest now and then, but then, I wouldn't be me. I've kind of come to accept that I'm a somewhat crazy, overly sensetive girl with moodswings.

Oh oh, before I forget, I did a livestream of this picture, and the videos can still be seen on my Bittersweet enmi Channel! The videos are quite long since they are real-time, but feel free to just skip forward in time and watch the parts that you are interested in. I hope you like it! I plan to do more livestreams in the future!

Weekend Wishes!

Art journaling

I used to have a really nice morning routine of waking up at 8, making tea and then sitting down to create a page in my art journal. I won't be able to do that in the future unless I get up really early, since I'll start a new job on Monday, more about that later. Now, I thought I should share my process with you, because i think that art journaling is a great way to play with your creativity and just let go of all the stress of trying to create something fantastic or having to struggle with art skills. It's just play and fun.

I keep a little box of magazine cutouts that I have collected over time. It's really easy to get a big collection of pictures and papers quickly by just browsing through old magazines you don't want or even junk advertising that you get in your mail. Every piece of paper has some potential.

I then choose a bunch of stuff I like and try to think of a theme. This time I wanted to create some kind of geisha doll like thing with cherry blossoms. Nothing complicated, just a girl with cute crazy hair and such.

I cut and rip and paste until I have some sort of organized mess. I usually paste all the paper material into my journal before I start painting. I use a very cheap paper glue and then I colour everything with watercolour. The trick that I found early on in my process of art journaling is that it's the mess that creates the charm. I tend to be really messy and sloppy when I do this, because the point of doing this for me personally is to just let go and not think too much. If you fail, just start over, or try to mend it by sticking more random stuff onto your page. Even failed pages can look cute in the end.

My goal is to fill this entire notebook with messy, colourful pages. On some of them I write a little piece about my day, like in a diary. I put the date in and sometimes I quote poems or songs I like that fit the page I just made. Art journaling for me is pure creative freedom without any kind of preassure. The best thing is, you don't have to be able to draw well, or have any kinds of special skills or tools. Just some paper, glue, scissors and whatever you want to use to put some splashes of colour in there. If you haven't done this already, I really really urge you to just pick up an old notebook and start making a beautiful mess!

Friday, September 16, 2011

On solitude

I hate it. Well, that's not entirely true, I've always had a need to be on my own now and then, especially with my art and when I feel creativity flowing. Sometimes having someone else too close can be distracting in those times. Right now though I just feel a sharp painful longing and a need for company, well, mainly hugs to be honest. Hugs are the best. My dog doesn't seem to be in a hugging mood at the moment.

I think this feeling is pretty natural, and hopefully it will fade a bit and the reason it's so painful right now is because of the contrast of being so close to someone and then suddenly being all alone.

New and exciting things are just around the corner though, and I have hopes that this will distract me from my hug-addiction and loneliness enough to last me until Christmas. I'll try to be happier tomorrow.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Back and forth

I woke up this morning, got kicked out of bed and went to make some coffee. I've read a book while I'm here about creating and selling your art online and it's really inspired me to try to get some more energy to get things going for real with my artwork and handmade items and how I sell them. I've been kind of distracted, doing other things and focusing on just figuring out things about my life in general, so the small cute things I normally focus on have kind of gotten pushed aside.

Hopefully, when I go back to Sweden I will be able to keep my focus and keep all the inspiration and energy I've gathered here in Scotland and transfer it into creativity. I know that the more I work on my art, the happier I get, and I just have to remember that when I lie there in bed with a heavy heart and sad thoughts. My mood goes up and down, back and forth and it has always been like that. I think it's something I'll have to learn to live with, but I also know that I can stay happy for longer periods of time when I get into a creative haze. The mornings I go up and sit down to make a page in my art journal or when I take my camera out while I walk Chessy. It doesn't have to be a masterpiece a day, it's just the small things that matter when it comes to staying happy.

This feels like a rambling post of me just sharing my random thoughts, but I needed to get it out. Now I'll try to enjoy my last full day with Matthew without sadness and just fill it with pillow fights, sweet food and happiness!

Monday, September 12, 2011

Sweet Artist: Stella Im Hultberg

I found Stella Im Hultberg through a blog post on Papaya and fell in love with the way she paints faces. She lives in Brooklyn NYC but she was born in South Korea. She uses different combinations of ink, watercolor and oils, working on paper or canvas. The two portraits at the top and bottom of this post are painted on tea stained paper, which is something I love to do myself, so I find a lot of inspiration from this artist. You should really take a look at the rest of her artwork at her website. This is just a fraction!

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Weekend Wishes!

I almost forgot this weekends little wish list, but I managed to make one right before midnight. I guess I'm a little too busy with love at the moment to browse around Etsy. Well, I'll be enjoying some more of that before it's time to go home on early Friday morning. It's a bit sad to think my next wish list will be made back in Sweden, but I'll be fine. Besides, if I stayed here in Scotland for too long I'd start getting really round around the edges with all the sticky toffee pudding and pancakes with fudge and strawberry ice cream I'm having. Gah!

Calming castles

Finally I got my hands on the pictures I've taken over the last few days while going around visiting all the castles of Aberdeenshire and Inverness. Well, most of them, I can't imagine I've missed any because of the sheer amount of castles I've been going around. It's been really amazing seeing them all. Unfortunately a lot of them had a no photography policy, but I'll just have to try to remember all the artwork and detailed, carved out ceilings and adorable bedrooms I've seen.

Yesterday I was standing in an archway into a castle, in the rain just looking at all of the beauty around me, and I felt really philosophical and just calm. I have huge difficulties relaxing in general, but at this place I just feel so at ease. I've gathered so much inspiration now and I just hope I'll manage to take it with me when I have to go back home.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Spirit Tree - in progress

I am currently working on improving my portfolio and learning new things. This is one of the pieces I've been spending a lot of time on lately, and it still isn't finished. It's a challenge and it's really fun at the same time, to try things I otherwise don't think about drawing. In the future you'll probably see a lot of art from me that's not what I normally do. I'm getting a lot of help and inspiration from Matthew who comes up with amazing stories for me to illustrate, or stories about what I have already drawn.

I have so many photos now that I want to share from this trip, but I haven't been able to get them into my computer yet, so we'll see when I can show you the castle ruin I got to visit the other day. If I manage to get some more energy later tonight I'll start working on another portfolio piece that's in my head. Exciting!

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Weekend Wishes!

I'm in Scotland and my computer works, so I'm very very happy at the moment. Today I've been around, being show around some of the countryside here with castles and gardens. It's been really amazing and I have plenty of pictures to show, probably by tomorrow when I've got around to get them into my computer.

But yeah, the wish list this week is all orange and brown and sweet. I guess I kind of long to see those autumn leaves now. It's going to be a trying autumn for me for sure, for many reasons, but I'll try to stay happy and just see the beauty in things. I'll be fine somehow. Right now I'm trying to just soak up all the cuddles and happiness I can here in Scotland.