Sheesh, so much to do and so little time to spend in front of my computer nowadays. Well, the holiday leave I have from work is almost over, and it's new years eve today, so I'm going to celebrate and be happy and then back to serious life again. If spending your days drawing video-game characters can be considered serious. Anyway, I have a steaming cup of coffee and a rather steamy guy in my bed, so I'm gonna leave my computer once more. Ciao!
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
This is my first, fully finished acrylic painting of this size. I started it without a real plan and then the girl I painted sort of started to resemble my sister, and as the holidays were approaching I decided to make it her portrait and give it to her. I loved working on this, and I can't wait to start a new traditional piece. I've got so many ideas!
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
A number of inspirational photographs I've found recently. I desperately want to pick up my own camera and start playing around with it again. I think it could be good for me. Perhaps after Christmas I'll have time to start again, and I have some ideas in mind and models to capture. With the risk of sounding repetative, I'm amazingly confused right now about a lot of things in my life, trying to figure out what choices to make and how to handle everything. My life never seems calm and normal nowadays, I don't know what happened.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
I don't think I was made to be awake during the winter. I think what I really need is to gather food into my den, build a fort out of my bed and stay there in hibernation until spring. I don't think I've been this tired before in my entire life. Still somehow I manage to go out on new adventures and meet new people. I don't really know how that works.
I find myself at work, staring at the clock with only one thing on my mind, sleep. Even though my job is amazing right now and my assignments are dreamy, I can't bring myself to keep focus for very long before my mind wanders. If anyone has a cure for this, please share.
On Thursday I'm going back to my old home town to see my family for the holidays. It's gonna be me and the bulldog beast on a train packed with people. But after the visit home I'm going back to my own nest to enjoy a couple of days off where I hope to regain some strenght and energy. Despite my mind only being set on sleep, I'm more inspired than ever and I want to get things out, in drawings or writing, it doesn't matter. Too much has happened lately to just let it slip. The best way to capture memories is to put them into creativity.
Friday, December 16, 2011
The Desert Dead by Aaron Polson is a really badass story about murder mysteries, zombies and western action. I'm really late with linking this, but I got the honor to paint the cover for this online pulp fiction magazine by the Red Penny Papers a while ago. It was a lot of fun, and if you've got the time, snuggle up with some tea or coffee and read this, it's awesome.
I've been a member on DeviantArt since I was 16. There are many things to say about this community, but I've always found that it's a great way for me to get my art out to be seen by as many as possible, and the kind words I've received from followers there has kept me going, believing in my own art.
Now one of my artworks has been featured in the dArtzine and I'm really excited to have my picture included with so many amazing pieces of art.
Now I'm getting ready to head away for the weekend, off to adventure. It's been a busy week, both good and bad. I just felt like this feature was a good reminder for me to truly thank all those who have supported me in my art, said little things of kindness or given me honest critique. Thank you sweethearts! <3
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Dodge this babe, you´re much more fun when you´re alive...
Yeah I've had a lot of inspiration to create darker art lately, and I'm having a lot of fun with both the painting process and the inspiration gathering. I still feel somewhat strange posting these pictures on my blog, which mainly is about sweet, cute little inspirational things and then I throw in some bloodied knives and desert eagles. Well, I guess it's all about contrasts. Things get so much more interesting when it's not all one-sided.
I've always lived quite a sheltered life, surrounding myself with colourful happy things to live on pink clouds as much as I can. On the other side I've also always been inspired by brutality and lifestyles of people very different to me. A lifestyle I just take tiny sips of now and then when I get too curious to help myself. Those sips are enough to make me want to paint and write, fueled enough to put those experiences into creativity.
Friday, December 9, 2011
Yeah, I've had way too many episodes back and forth with my snooze button, realizing I only have 10 minutes to get ready for work. It has to come to an end somehow! I mean, sure it's nice to lay around in a warm comfy bed instead of getting out into the cold air in my apartment in the morning, but it can't go on! I have to break up with my snooze-button...
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Everything is white outside and me and the bulldog ran around in the park yesterday at lunchtime. Can't believe I actually had the energy to do that, but Chessy was so energetic and happy so I didn't want to spoil her fun. She doesn't look very happy in this photo though, probably because I held her down in order to get a photo. She just wanted to play.
Now I'm back at work, doing what I've dreamed about for a long time. A secret still, but I can reveal that I get to imagine and draw lots and lots of cool stuff that really fits my personal taste. That's not always a luxury you get while painting for a living, so I'll soak it up and enjoy it as much as I can.
Other fun stuff is going on as well, but I really shouldn't be blogging while working. No no, it's time to put on the serious face and design some sweet looking stuff!
Monday, December 5, 2011
Just got in from my balcony where I sat watching the first snow of the winter. Odd how a change of weather can bring up so many different emotions. It reminds me how fast time moves, how much my life has changed in just a year, and I wonder what I was doing back then, what I would have thought about myself if I knew what I would be doing now.
This weekend I had decided to go out and have a few drinks, listen to loud music and just dance, all on my own, not caring much about anything at all. Just getting out the door has always been a challenge for me, now this was something completely new. Exciting and frightening, but I guess I'm able to switch from shy, scared little Emmy to a braver one now and then. I even managed to create some scribbly art from the inspiration I got. So I had my sweet drinks, and listened to some pretty nice live music. The rest of the night shall remain unspoken of, but I've gathered new experiences, felt new feelings and this new snow on the ground works pretty well as a poetic metaphor for this change.
If this brave Emmy will come out and play more often is unknown. Maybe, but not in a while. I need some rest.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
I'm waiting for the rain to calm down so that I can go and buy myself some food. It's such a typical late autumn day where everything is gray and it's mid-day and still so dark I have to have lights lit inside. It's rather pleasant however, now when I'm actually inside and not trecking through the rain with bags full of groceries.
I sketched and painted this faerie, Wither, yesterday, and I wanted to capture those autumn colours where it's no longer all orange and red and bright, but the actual colours of decay. I still love those colours.
My annoying exhaustion just keeps bugging me, and I can't seem to get energy no matter what I do. I fall asleep as soon as I get home unless I really force myself to do something, and it takes all the willpower I have. Luckily my dog has no problem with the fact that I spend all my time in bed nowadays, but my apartment is a mess and today I have to clean it all up. It's come to a point where just chatting to my friends through skype has become difficult. I'm sorry for this, I'm thinking about you guys, and I'll come back from this hibernation eventually.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
While sitting in my little christmas-lit office, working on concept art and inspiration gathering, my co-worker comes in and tells me about Eric Fortune. A quick look through his website is all I need to fall in love with his artwork. Fortune is an Ohio based artist and illustrator who has been featured in Spectrum and won awards for his art. I can see why.